I believe that discrimination is one of those things that have little or no chances to change or to become better in time.
I am not a pessimistic. I tend to hope for a world with a better self conscience, where the war, conflicts and discrimination would diminish until complete extinction. But I know this is not going to happen. I believe that the fight against all types of discrimination is a permanent one and will remain this way. That’s because the cases of discrimination are recorded on each human level, in its depth: from the most elevated circles – including the political staff and the upper class – to the most basic human, who lives in a trailer on the town’s outskirts.
You are someone who discriminates. Yes, you.
Also me, I can’t deny. I go further to affirm that in some cases, the discrimination is a natural result, a mix of personal experience and primary instincts. Why primary instinct? Because it reveals that you’re not too far from a simple animal, which relies solely on instinct.
The animals are the ones which attack, isolate and kill the members of their species which don’t meet the pack standards. The three-legged one always eats the last (if there’s anything left from the others feast). The ugliest one – in terms of fur shining, colors, posture or – they know better – is not chosen for mating. The one who is different in any way, gets punished and isolated.
But we, as human beings, should be above that, at least in theory. We should learn acceptance, tolerance and equality regardless the circumstances.
But this is not going to happen, since we still act like a group of chimps.
I, myself, consider to be someone who can discriminate at times. You know the feeling you get when:
- Have the chance to do business with someone from an ethnic group or culture that you don’t feel connected to. Tell me that you close the deal and don’t make up an excuse, then look for another potential partner.
- Have the chance to build a relationship of any kind with someone who has a visible disability or deficiency. Tell me that you’re not looking for other people in the room or venue – perhaps to give another shot?
- Have the opportunity to collaborate with someone whose political views, sexual orientation or religion don’t match with yours. Tell me you close the deal with a smile on your face.
And I could carry like this for ever.
I don’t see myself in any of this circumstances, having a complete non-discriminatory position. I am fully aware it is a wrong way of thinking, but I stopped lying to myself that I am a special snowflake who sees everyone on the same level. Maybe I would try to explain that I have other reasons for not going with the first choice. Certainly, I would keep my real thoughts under the silence and, best case scenario, I would get out of the situation remaining neutral for the moment. And I know very well that not making any decision is a big decision.
Of course, usually I’m trying to be as impartial as I can. I am able to do it, for instance, with someone with other religion or sexual orientation than me. But I can’t do it when I have to deal with a certain ethnic group that I know for having a questionable behavior. I know there are not all the same, but having a bad experience in 95% of the cases with that specific ethnic group (I will not name), made me lose my trust and develop fear. I admit, I wouldn’t do business with them, wouldn’t build any friendship or have any type of contact, giving the circumstances.
However, I see around me worse cases of discrimination, from people with giant biases.
People who simply hate hate hate! – the ones who are different. I don’t understand the hatred displayed publicly, whether it is in the middle of the street or online. I am also not capable to understand the street marches against certain minority groups. I believe that if you go to such reunion and display negativity, you have too much fucking free time and your soul is full of white worms, like a rotten corpse.
If you carry a battle against discrimination, with or without being part of an underprivileged group, I admire you sincerely. It is not easy to face so much hatred and tomatoes thrown at you, and still to remain on your feet and keep being a voice. I don’t believe this fight will end any soon. But I think this is the only case where winners show up before the battle comes to an end.